Friday, July 06, 2007

i must say that today was quite a day, because it's only through common times or moments like these when we share the same contexts, seeing the true selves of people, where facades slowly fade away & what's left is the inner portions, all raw & tender.

I'm not going to elaborate on how I fared for my oral today, because it's over, & reminding myself about the few minutes I had in that room staring up the walls blankly would only make me feel so much worse inside. yes, i'm disappointed with myself, and i don't know how to describe how i was feeling at that particular moment, like there was a momentary rush of emotions through me, struggling to put itself together again.

it's scary to recall, but i'm grateful for the experience. what's thought-provoking, is the pillar of support constantly being built, improved & added upon between us with every single day. it becomes strong, only when we are truly aware of its existence, and otherwise only when we overlook that pillar. sadly, some things are slowly drifting apart.

some things are built upon a two-way basis, where both ends support each other. others may survive one-way, but doesn't last. & it's sad that there are those with none, sparing no effort at all to keep it together, or even build the solest of foundations.

you know, it's only recently that i started writing letters again, maybe it's because i become more aware of the existences of people around me, and how they really mean a lot to me? i remember how terrible i felt when I had lots of things to say to someone who's important in my life, but those words never got out of me. I don't want things to turn out that way again, because it's the last thing i'd ever want it to happen.

tingan, i'm grateful for having you around, encouraging, supporting, cheering me up when i'm down & giving me chocolate/ribena thinking it'd make me feel better. you are an inspiration :D & good luck to vanee for her dance comp, we'll miss you & we'll be praying for you at the same time. & huiyin, cheer up kay (:

OH, when i came home today & my folks asked me how my oral was, i told them & i couldn't believe their reaction, because i didn't really expect them to be proud of me or anything, or give a word of encouragement. but my dad tapped me on my back, bought for me iced cold milo & told me it's not the end of the world :D i love you daddy, it was as though i needed that at that exact moment. even my mum encouraged me that everything would be fine. i cried okay.

it's only the beginning,

so run with me;

a thousand miles
10:49 PM

YADA. (:

Watch me as i fall a thousand storeys
just to reach the ground
& see you smile just the way you did before\

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Friday, July 06, 2007

YADA. (:

FEMME.

EVERYTHING WITHIN.

THE LOVE.

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