Wednesday, February 21, 2007

I think I need to keep track of the things going on alr.
because I think I have selective memory :D

I'm afraid to say this, but sometimes I'd just shut myself from everything else
and just pop out of nowhere again in some ulu-ulu place.
okay, it doesn't really make any sense. but the point is, I really need your understanding at times like these, and even when I totally shut myself in my turtle shell or something, just don't knock vigoriously on it & expect me to emerge. :D
because it just keeps me in further. haha

if you don't get me, it's totally okay. because I've learnt not to expect too much(:
which in turn leads to surprises :D

yeah, I need time. I guess everyone else needs it too at some point or another, &sometimes I blame myself for not noticing the needs of others. blehh.

had a great time during lunch yesterday, & thanks for the card(: nevermind the handwriting, doesn't really matter anyway. I just appreciate the time spent, that's all yup. hope I didn't blast your pockets or something. :D

I'm glad I did something special for someone(:
okay, it's not really special lah, but I guess it had a special purpose? (:
you made me realise that you were more than what you were actually worth,
& I'll prove to you how much that means;
I can't a hundred percent guarantee, but at least I can TRY. (:

I've got pretty bad numbers on the academic tracking report thing, though I really detest the mere thought of them, I ain't letting those numbers anywhere near me. because numbers don't mean anything(: & I believe I have got so much more to learn. & to submit myself at this point of time just doesn't seem right. haha

oh & many thanks to chia chu for asking everyone to sing the birthday song even when it's two days late xD though it was totally redundant lah. & awkward at the same time. get well soon okay! (: haha the responsible welfare rep. irresponsible for overlooking his own health. tsk tsk.
don't ever do that again! :D

blehhh, I guess I'm off to work. :\
(: &I think my memory is depleting by the minute alr.

click here to revive my memory!

& I guess it was just me, all along.

a thousand miles
10:18 PM

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

it has been quite some time, hasn't it.

& I realise that people can get pretty extreme
without them knowing. like my mom(:

& I realise too, that as the years go by,
the wishing part gets hard to deal with
(:
&all the more challenging in fact

she wished for the stars,
every one of them up above,
but none of them came.

she wished for the sky,
& how she longed to climb onto one of those clouds,
but all she could do
was to find herself tied to the ground.

she wished for two turtle doves,
& if it came true,
she knew that without the stars or the skies,
there was at least something she could love or care for with all her heart.

but they didn't come.

& she finally gave up.

but what she didn't know, was in fact
a mysterious guardian angel,
following her every move,
& witnessing every wish she made.

& that guardian angel loved her wholeheartedly
and willingly, but somehow that love dripped its last
when she lost all hopes.

but that guardian angel remained forever faithful to that little girl.
(:

no matter what desires people may have, it's always good to know that there is always something or someone to witness that very moment, &even if it doesn't come true, we can at least comfort ourselves in knowing that we are not alone right.

we all need faith in some ways. but losing faith just isn't something in which we are meant for; &even when it seems as though your kite down by the end of the string tugs loose, losing faith would only cause it to drift further apart from you. on the contrary, the second time you tug at the string, it now feels tighter and stronger than before, because faith has brought you so much closer to the kite itself. (:

because it is faith which keeps us going. (: &sometimes we just can't afford to lose it.

nevermind about the stars or the skies,
or even those two turtle doves,
I'd do anything, anything
just to be your guardian angel,
because faith is what keeps us going(:

happy birthday to me.
haha :D

a thousand miles
12:07 AM

Sunday, February 18, 2007

I feel as though I need a change.
somehow.

& sometimes I find myself being tied up with certain things which aren't even worth my time. like trying to understand you when you don't even bother. & I get tied up with words which mean a lot to me & words you aren't even sincere about.

&you'd laugh when I'd fall hard on the ground(not literally), &I have to force a smile to show that I'm okay. most of the time I convince myself to not think about you but those thoughts all flow back to me. are you even worth my time?

sometimes I think you really deserve a chance, & I believe everyone does too. but I don't know if you'd appreciate it. & I really doubt that you understand what is truly going on.

I don't know, maybe all I need is time?

well I guess I try not to let them get to me, now that cny has made me so much happier(: & it's the stuffing myself with goodies which moments I look forward to. I think I've become a pig alr. HAHA

how does running around from place to place & stuffing yourself with goodies at every stop sound to you? it's really tiring okay(: I think it should be a form of exercise right. haha. but in this case there's no pain, and no gain. no loss either. haha :D

btw I really miss all those peeps I met up on wednesday! I think you know who you guys are right((: blehhh. ^^

Happy cny people(: & a really special day coming up?
hahaha this post is super random lah.

a thousand miles
11:19 PM

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

to all those who remembered,
& to all those who went the extra mile
to see that special thing turn up on my face,
you will be cherished,
because you have become a part of me I'd never let go(:

actually I knew I wouldn't in the first place :D

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! <3

well today is a day I can never ever wish for, seriously!

it doesn't matter if I looked like a retarded freak today, but you guys really made me SMILE. throughout the day :D

&I'm really touched by what the girls did today during lunch! thanks so much okay. I didn't know you guys had it all planned :D it really took me by surprise. but you guys would never guess where I was(x haha

you will never know how much you mean to me, never. (:

don't ever ask me who the gayfriends/2shay-ians are.
because I'd seriously ignore you. (:

I loveee them so much! (: although I kinda regret that I didn't spend enough time with them, but it's always nice to see them just the way they are with their unique trademarks(:

but you know I almost changed my mind about going back to cedar, as I was not feeling well on mon and tues. &rushing through my homework just wasn't gonna help, but somehow I got a little better today(:

&I didn't even regret about going back.(((:
because it was a promise anw :D

btw I got seduced by 2shay-ians the moment I reached. (if you get what I mean) haha I guess it's the lack of human contact which causes the adrenalin rush huh. HAHA but if you ask me really, it's the little things that warms my heart the most :D & you guys certainly did!

You know I very much wanted to choose to stone right there and then. HAHA but it wouldn't have been possible, because time waits for no man right. Haha prod me if I'm not making any sense :D btw I feel so motivated! &the many encouragements I believe would keep me going(:
well if you guys need to rant about anything at all, feel free to come to me :D
because I've become a slave; a happy slave.
&the best thing is, I'm all yours(:
so call me & I'll be there, anytime :D

but I didn't get to see some of them though, but it's okay(:
happy v'day to rachel and the rest of the class! including zak, nabila, marlia, hafiza and i wen who were having their ccas. at that moment, somehow I kinda felt that I was proud of them :D

okay I shall list the loves that I was just dying to see & did in the end <333 cathlin! sherri! yi min! lisa! fiona! cheryl! sameerah! jie lei! alvina! subaaa! hui chun! (you guys are still as crazy as ever, but I like that :D)
LOVEEE;

Anw you guys really made my day, I can't thank you guys enough for that (: That's enough said right
*BEAMS

a thousand miles
10:25 PM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

life is getting more hectic, ain't it.
yeah, and why am I here :\
haha, sense the irony

& people start to brush past each other's lives,
not even thinking of turning back or stopping
just to see how others are getting along aye.

just like a one-way street?

I guess I do that too yeahs. sigh.

okay, I shall make an effort to check on somebody everyday(:
see if they're doing okay((:

and it's FEBRUARY(: boy, do I like the sound of it haha
if only this could last throughout the month heh.
AND! happy belated birthday to my dear junior syahirah!
hmm I still remember the way she'd squeal with delight and her little outbursts of laughter hehhs. haha

well you know sometimes we're just so pressed for time
like how school would just work its way up to suck us all
ehem, like a vacuum cleaner.
but no worries, because even if it goes on super mode,
it wouldn't be able to suck me anyways(: hehh

boy, I have a three-course menu next week.
you'd never guess what those are.

three
course
menu\

haha, they are tests btw!
& it was just another effort by me to view them in a different way.
like how we'd groan whenever we think of them haha
but hopefully I'd savour every moment of it
haha, it kinda sounds wrong :D

\you know it's so hard to make you understand
and keeping my stand on this doesn't mean that I cease to care
or rather, I know it's no use explaining every word of it
considering the fact that all those would fall into deaf ears anw
though I really hope that you'd;

I better get on to preparing for my three-course menu(:

and it's yet another week of stumbles and falls.
not anymore, huh.

a thousand miles
5:49 PM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Sunday, February 18, 2007

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Sunday, February 04, 2007

YADA. (:

FEMME.

EVERYTHING WITHIN.

THE LOVE.

archives

credits