Saturday, December 02, 2006

I've never felt so real in my life;

I feel like I'm so blessed to meet you people
from all walks of life
and I'd never even thought about how close we'd get
until now
when it all comes back to me

if my brain had limited storage space
and I'd to choose memories to keep,
I'd definitely keep the memories I had for the past two years
and I won't even feel a pang of regret at all
because you guys had totally made my life
so much livelier as a whole

and of course
choosing band as my cca is something I'd really be satisfied with
although I didn't get in the first round
but I managed to after the appeal
and it was all worth it;

I thought you guys did really great today
although we clinched a silver
it does not necessarily mean that we're not up for it
instead it means that we have the potential to do much better right
at first thought I was indeed disappointed
but that disappointment didn't last long
instead it turned into satisfaction and fulfillment
because we did our best aye

we went in there with confidence and hope
and we left with our heads held high
with no regrets at all
we've tried so hard to get that much-wanted gold
for so many years
that failing isn't something we're afraid of
because all those years of hard work didn't really go to waste
but it was actually stored up inside

looking around us
and the many bands who showed that they too
could succeed despite the mentality that bystanders would have towards them
but they proved everyone in that hall wrong
because they did it

and don't you realise
that we've come so far with our dreams which continue to steer us ahead
that not achieving that gold at the moment
actually proves
that we are not afraid to give up just yet
and that we have values that no other band had withheld
FOR SO LONG.

cedar symphonic band is full of substance and character.
and who knows
maybe one day we'll reach there
and today was a step closer towards that desired destination

I totally have faith in you guys.

and you know what?

I feel so blessed to be a part of this memory
that it almost feels unreal;
and I consider myself fortunate as to be in the shoes of the cedar symphonic band member
and to experience the journey itself
of reaching towards the skies
although I'd really miss out on that experience of actually being on top of the sky

because it's the journey that matters;

well tears were shed today on the way back to school
and having you guys supporting me, comforting me
was the best thing that ever happened to me
because you made me feel so loved

some of you actually thought that I was milding upon the competition
but it wasn't because of that
that I lost control of my emotions
instead it was the fact that you guys were there for me all along
and the invisible bond that we have has grown so much stronger
that I don't ever wanna think of letting go;

and it's funny how those you'd thought wouldn't be there for you
start to emerge in front of you
all ready by your side to catch those tears as they fall
and isn't it funny too
as to how those you'd thought that would be there for you
somehow disappear just as you need them the most

which explains why today was the real(lest) day of my life.

I guess I have to embrace the friendships which didn't quite work all these while
and to rejoice in knowing that
certain friendships did indeed exist
but they were concealed because I left one eye closed
and it is these friendships
that are really worth remembering and embracing
because they are the best ones I had yet

and the fact that it actually took me time and understanding
to find these friendships
tells me
that they are PRICELESS
and there is no question at all to whether I'm keeping these friendships with me
BECAUSE I WILL.(:

I'm really glad to say
that I had many pleasant moments today
no matter how happy or sad they made me
and I'm deeply grateful to my fellow percussionists
for their endless encouragement and support

Ci Hui(:- for getting everyone to surround me just to cheer me up but it left me tearing instead

Tsu Wie(:- for being patient with me and instilling hope in me to do my best

Hannui(:- for your million-dollar smile which was capable of making my moods positive and constantly turning back to see if I was okay in the bus

Varruna(:- for making such sweet remarks that actually left me wondering if I did hear them at all

Arina(:- for being there for me the whole way through and your lameness in your effort to try to sweeten the mood on the way home by the cedar primary way

Tracy(:- for constantly encouraging me to get high and getting me to dance retardedly before the performance

the sec ones (Syahirah, Angeline, Sheriel, Lan Xin)- for comforting me at the most crucial moments and for showing me that you guys are the bestest juniors I could ever have(:

Shaza(:- for believing in us percussionists and for never giving up on us

Hui Jun(:- for having that remarkable gift of touching my heart although she doesn't even know that she does, and for that lovely card

Yuxin(:- for sincerely wishing me all the best in the years to come

and how could I forget,
THE LEADERS(:- for giving the extra boost of confidence in the band and the suggestion of having a one-only whisper-cum-cheer just as our turn was about to start

oh yes one more thing
MY FOLKS(:- for kick starting my day by giving me tonnes of support and for reminding me to treasure my last experience with the band

I feel so blessed,
really.

This will be one of my bestest bestest memory I will have

and it would be stored

right here

*points to heart(:

I wouldn't mind engraving words in my heart
to keep these memories I have with cedar symphonic band
because you guys have showed me that life could be made even more worthwhile
when we're living for a purpose
and to continue to strive on with that purpose
makes all the difference
(:

I LOVE THE CEDAR SYMPHONIC BAND. <3
one heart,
one symphony,
one cedar symphonic band.

a thousand miles
10:46 PM

Saturday, December 02, 2006

YADA. (:

FEMME.

EVERYTHING WITHIN.

THE LOVE.

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