Tuesday, October 31, 2006

I'm starting to believe that whatever I have or have had
is gonna disappear right in front of my eyes.

POOF.

gahh, I think the only thing that's keeping me going now
is band and yes, how could I forget
THE SIX OF NOVEMBERRRR
and something tells me that I'm gonna have a rocking good time(:
or at least hopefully

haha it's nice to hear that most of you
are drying your roses after all that it went through
well at least you realise that having green fingers ain't easy right
HAHA

hey sometimes I wish I had a rose too
I wanted to take those roses which some of you have left behind
but I just felt that maybe they were better there I think
so I just left them alone
I regretted it okay.
I think they'd be better off on my table.(:
oh wells.

but wait a minute
I think I can have a VIRTUAL rose
of any colour I want
nevermind if it can't withstand sunlight
and forget about water
or even bother about drying it
because it's my super duper all-weather rose
but it just makes me feel guilty for not treating it well
and only taking care of it depending on my mood
which is bad
bahhh):

I shall give my one hundred and ten percent
and shower you with infinite amounts of LOVE
and whatever that is needed for you to be in full bloom
my virtual rose~
I bet you want one right(:

Sometimes all I need is for you to be there for me}

a thousand miles
10:08 PM

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Tonight was totally CRAZYYYY.

oh yeahs. (:

I'll miss everyone from 2S, and the many times we had together.
Sometimes it's the little things that you guys say or do
that really make me smile or cry inside
although I don't really show it

hurrs.

We've grown so close together,
and when so many of us are leaving
we actually feel for each other
when we know that we'd not be in the campus next year

I'll miss Cedar, the teachers, the students, 2S, Cedar Symphonic Band, Percussion,
EVERYTHING.
Every single part of the school has a special place in my heart.

I love the CANTEEN.
where we used to cut the queues just to get our food on fried food thursdays
and we used to pop by for a drink after P.E. or jogging with our outstanding yellow P.E. tees
and when we had monthly birthday parties for BAND

I love the HOME ECONS LAB.
where we become little chefs (don't you dare doubt our abilities!) WE ARE GOOD OKAY
and we'll head over to each over to borrow the ingredients (HAHA)
and we'll always taste our food illegally right under the noses of our teachers
and it was the place where we had FIESTA@CEDAR
and we were all working really hard together
and we even managed to pull it off(:
Oh yes we did BILLY BANJA after that which was so COOL

I love the MPH.
where we sat in the gallery when we were sec ones
and we used to look down to see A SEA OF BLUE! (you can't see this elsewhere!)
and we used to sabo each other to go up on stage
AND YES I WAS SABO-ED (:
and where we used to PARTY during the national day celebrations
when all the lights were out and we SANG TO OUR HEARTS' CONTENT
and where we used to have movie screenings and
we almost hated it when we were interrupted by announcements
OH YES
it was the place where we had our INDUCTION CEREMONY
and I'll always remember the sushi conveyor belt! heeee(:

I love the COM LABS.
oh it was the first time I had seen computers that were placed inside the tables HAHA
(maybe it stimulated our eyesight? (: )
it was the place where we had our wonderful CRUSH programme
where we learnt about the many possible dangers of the internet
and where we used to have our dnt Prodesktop sessions with our beloved MRS LEE
and more often than not we surfed the net and blog-hopped instead of doing IT research(:

I love the SCIENCE LABS.
my lab partner Jharyathri!
performing experiments with her was so exciting cannn.(:
We were so blur at times and we would be turning over to I Wen and Marlia to check what we've missed (HAHA)
and we were not afraid to LAUGH AT OUR MISTAKES
when we didn't follow the instructions given by Mrs Yeo (oops)
and when we got the desired results, we would be hi-fiving and all that
see, this is called teamwork heee(x
I LOVE MY BENCH!

I love the AS 1 and AS 2.
where we had our enrichment courses as part of CE
and where we had malay dance lessons and until now I still don't get it haha
and where we practised playing our guitars before we had our test
and where we used to have our HISTORY PAGEANT!
we were all really good la, congrats for those in the Maria Hertogh Musical
you guys were AWESOMEEE.

I love the MUSIC ROOM.
where we used to form little groups and to sit on the floor
and where we had the keyboard and guitar lessons with Mrs Ong
and how she used to talk about how her son would make her laugh
e.g. sitting on a particular rubber boat (x
and we used to sneak in food during recess to practise haha
and where I used to play on the drums and the xylophone discreetly at the end of every lesson ( I LIKEE)

I love the SPORTS HALL/TRACK/TENNIS COURTS/OLD CEDAR TRACK/VOLLEYBALL COURT
where we had our wonderful P.E. lessons with Ms Poon
where we used to play hockey, frisbee, mini rugby and many more
and oh yes soccer (too bad we didn't get to play as a class)
and the sprints were the worse
but we managed to get through it aye
and where we had our NAPFA 2.4km run
and we cheered each other on to the finish(:
I'll always remember that moment heee
It's called TEAM SPIRIT. and WE HAVE IT.

I love the LIBRARY.
where we used to have geography lessons with MS WAN!
(I simply love her and her tolerance to withstand such noise pollution a SINGLE class alone haha)
and where we used to watch geog videos with a CUTEEE boy in it
and where we watched THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW and we practically SCREAMED our lungs out when we saw the tide closing in and flooding the whole of New York City
overall it was quite niceeee
and most of all, I love the AIR-CON. hey wait a minute, beware of CFCs ):

I love the 2S CLASSROOM.
where we had our lessons conducted by MR TAY, MS KONG, MS LAW, MS QUEK, MS WAN MS CHEANG, MRS YEO, MRS LAM, MS CHUA, YU LAO SHI AND MRS LEE.
and where we had to make sure that the whole place was kept clean and all times
the whole classroom became a really cosy place for sleeping when it rained(:
and it was full of SMELLS (I shall not specify them) after jogging or P.E.
and then came the SPRAYS of perfume and deodorant
and we'll be turning to check where they came from (HAHA)
and where it became the Supreme Court for our debates which were FUN FUN FUN!
quite INTENSE really.
and we had our IPPT and we all worked together to make sure that we were protected from the harmful inhalants(oh yes, we made a maniature toilet which wasn't even used)
and SOMETHING happened between Mrs Lee and Mr Tay
which left us laughing after that
and it was where I was caught eating a mentos by Ms Wan
and was told to throw it away and I did (oops)
where we had GROUPWORK with Nabila and Cathlin who are so much fun to work with
we were always laughing at the back
where we had CE lessons when Mrs Lee shared with us her many exciting and touching stories
(or theories) and I'll always remember,
if you're ever mad at anyone, it's best to pray for him/her. yupps(:
and yes I shall repeat again
LIFE IS A BOOMERANG.
I'll always miss those times! (:
I love the 2S classroom to bits yeah.

I love the BAND ROOM.
where we used to practise really hard when the band competition was nearing
and where we used to have a BIRTHDAY SURPRISE for Ms Sia and Mr Ong
and all of us banders hid under the chairs and us percussionists under the timpani haha
and where we used to have promises made by Mr Ong if we did perform well
hey, where's our barbecue? we DESERVE it okay(:
where us percussionists end up enjoying ourselves when we had to think up of moves when we played the intruments e.g. swaying and dancing like retarded octopuses(:
where we we cheered each other on when anyone of us played the drumset
and of course,
we had our serious moments right
Percussion will strive for the best! WE CAN AND WE WILL!

I love the COURTYARD.
where we used to sit as a class right smack in the middle (I love it right there!)
where we had the Early Bird Reading Programme but we always end up talking
and the poor prefects have to come over and shush us heeeee(:
where we sang the National Anthem and School Song with enthusiasm
(okay, maybe only some of us, but I did okay(x)
where we listened intently to those cedarians making cute announcements/promotions/advertisements
where the Band leaders announced to the whole school that we had achieved a GOLD for the band competition which was simply SPECTACULAR
where we did last-minute mugging when we had our common tests or exams on the day itself

and last of all,
I love the FOYER.
where we used to sit and wait for a lift home after school or band
where we split up for our usual routes home
where we used to whine when the gate leading to Cedar Primary was locked (HAHA)
and OH YES
it was where we had our class photos taken!

I'm feeling nostalgic already.):

Well, these shall be my memories
and yes, I'll keep them within me forever.

My near-perfect memories.

Once a cedarian, always a cedarian. (:

a thousand miles
12:35 AM

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Sometimes we try so hard to hold back the tears,
it all comes back without you knowing}

It's just like a piece of fresh meat
that has just been ripped off you,
and somehow you find yourself struggling to go on.

Perhaps that is the pain of letting go.

It's nice to know,
that after all these times,
there are people who silently appreciate the things that you do for them
and although they are not able to express themselves
like you expect them to
they still anticipate your every move,
which leaves them wondering what's you'll do next

It's even better to know,
that after all these times,
these people are willing to take up the time and effort
to achieve the little things that you'd not expect them to do
which actually makes you melt deep inside

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Things would be different from now on I guess.

It would not feel the same again,
and the forty of us will not be able to indulge in
the things we enjoyed doing for the past two years
and that if we were to talk to each other again,
we'll never get to relive the moments
when we used to whine about the never-ending pile of homework
or when we used to groan just as the exams were around the corner

we'll never get the chance to comfort each other
and to rejoice in knowing that we have ourselves to hold on to
and we are assured that no matter what happens
we'll get through it all together

all for one, one for all.

we'll never get the chance to cheer each other on
and to let them be assured that we'll stay by their side
and we'll run with them to the finish
even if they are lagging behind;
because they've tried their best
and that's what matters

BUT

certain things will always remain the same
and they forever will

like the way we used to panic in extremely demanding situations
but all those tension and stress soon turned to outlets of positive energy
and as we worked together hand in hand
under one single roof
somehow we put aside our many differences
to achieve a common goal
and we rejoice in knowing that it didn't turn out so bad after all aye

like the way we used to laugh at our mistakes
and not take our teachers' straightforward opinions to heart
and that every mistake that we made
was not only a lesson for us to gain experience from
but it was also an opportunity for us to poke fun at each other
and it was then we understood that
things could be perceived in a more positive manner
instead of the usual seriousness of it all

I guess we've all grown to become better people
and although we may not be perfect
we still possess the inner spirit
and we have not forgotten who we really are

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Today was the last day of school
and I was totally numb or something
and I couldn't make clear of the thoughts I had in my mind

It's interesting to know,
that this day alone
could totally change your life forever

I don't know,
but I really didn't feel like coming to school today
as I wasn't feeling well for the past few days
and there were several instances when I was really worn out
and I almost felt like collapsing

oh wells. ]:

I tried so hard to hold back my tears,
and to hide my inner emotions from my classmates,
and I just couldn't bring myself to face them all.

I forced myself to smile throughout the day
but I just could not
and I broke down in the bus on the way home.

Things did not go well for me later on
and I spent most of my time locking myself in the room
thinking about the many people who have helped me along the way;
teachers, friends and even mere bystanders,
and each one of you has become an important part of me
that I can't do without,
and I sincerely thank you all for being there for me,
and supporting me in every move I make.

I'll definitely miss everyone from 2/S,
not forgetting Mrs Lee,
and you all have given me near-perfect memories of Cedar
and hopefully I'd be able to look back on these memories
in time to come

Here's to you guys of 1/S '05 and 2/S '06.
I love you all. (:
aishwarya; azrina; cathlin; olivia; en qi; paulina; delfilia; elizabeth soh; cheryl; fiona; lisa; hui chun; rachel; sherri; alvina; jie lei; jharyathri; i wen; marlia; mary; nabila; aishah; nurul; prisia; yi min; neerajha; sameerah; beatrice; ming ann; hafiza; rasyiqah; zakkiyah; suba; deborah; shi yin; vanessa; hong hui; milissa; yuki; MRS LEE; (:

I LOVE YOU ALL.

a thousand miles
8:16 PM

Monday, October 23, 2006

gosh, it's down to the last week of school
and I don't know what's going through me
but I guess I'll survive aye

come to think of it,
it has been close to 2 years huh.
and I already have wonderful memories of 2S. (:
In fact, they are near-perfect ones

I remember the times when we were first "born"
we didn't know each other at all
and we didn't even know how to react

we were all different in our own unique way
and well I guess it's the differences that
bring us closer together right
esp fiesta at cedar which I'd fondly remember

like how we'd really panic when the teachers would arrive
and we'd pool our resources and knowledge and chip in
to help in any possible way
be it cooking, entertaining or decorating
and our beloved director, HONG HUI
we'll always love you okay!

throughout the two years we had such wonderful teachers
and no, I'm not being biased la
thanks to our wonderful Ms Cheang and her SBQ skills
and oh yes Mr Tay and our dear form teacher Mrs Lee
and they were always looking out for us
just like how the mother hen would protect the little chicks
LOL

anyway, I guess we had lots of fun
and no matter how badly we wanted to fall asleep
we never fail to keep our eyes awake
(no wonder we've become goldfishes alr)
and we'll always love Ms Quek for her quirkiness
and Mr Shaun Lim for his ever-lasting determination
in teaching us
but I guess SOME things will never be revealed haha
(if you get what I mean)

which leads me to Lit!
oh wells I flunked my lit paper recently
but I still love lit okay
and failure is part and parcel of learning right
although you may not do well in it
just enjoy every moment of it
and that's most important aye (:

I simply love 2S okay!
Everyone of you,
you are just so inspiring
and y'all never fail to make me
laugh or smile
or even CRY
but y'all play a BIG part in my life really
and I can never be grateful to have you guys around 24/7
and to bear with me throughout it all

and our wonderful MRS LEE!
you were very particular when it concerned
practically everything regarding our class
and you shared every little detail about you
and I will always remember your inspiring CE periods
and yes
LIFE IS LIKE A BOOMERANG. (:

oh man, how am I going to get through the last 2 days of school?

oh somebody please help me. ):

toodles!

a thousand miles
9:47 PM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Doesn't it hurt,
to know that after all these times
you discover that they don't know you well at all
and no matter how hard you try to save yourself
it all falls on deaf ears

Doesn't it hurt,
to know that after all these times
you've been struggling alone to find out your true identity
and you've been crying behind closed doors
and yet nobody knows

Doesn't it hurt,
to know that you've tried so hard
tried so hard to make sure that things turn out alright
but in the end it all turns out otherwise
and you feel like a useless moron ain't it

Doesn't it hurt,
to know that the closest ones whom you thought know you well
give you assurances;
assuring you that they'd be there for you
and to think that I was foolish to take it for real
and I held on to those assurances
only to be disappointed time and time again

It all hurts. ]:

It's funny how I'd take every word you said for real
and you know it just leaves me wondering if this is all a dream
but reality just strikes me hard
and I end up falling yet again

To think that I trusted you
and I never gave up on your assurances
but you weren't there for me
just when I needed someone to catch my tears
or to simply give a listening ear

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Well I guess what matters most about friendship
is to be there for someone;
be it lending them a shoulder to cry on
or to catch those tears when they fall
rather than assuring them that you'd be there for them
cos' they don't seem to come into place ain't it

Actions speak louder than words;
I'm tired of the meaningless assurances okay
and I want to end the disappointment once and for all

I ain't a person who's willing to wait forever
and I know that you have your own interests at heart
and I don't blame you or intend to stop you from pursuing them
because you have your own directions
and I have mine right

ugh. ]:

I just want to break free;

a thousand miles
12:18 PM

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

I have been lying to myself all this while.

I was hiding from the cold hard truth,
and I didn't want to face it
and now it's all coming back at me again
I can only say
that I really deserve it
Oh yes I do

I thought that I would hide all the hurt and pain
from others and I didn't want it to affect them in any way possible
but now it seems
that the harder I keep it all within me
and fail to open myself up to others
and to share my pain with them,
the more hurt they actually receive than what I do

I was so stubborn.
There were people who were there for me
and yet I pushed them aside
and now I'm left all alone
How egoistical I was
to think that I didn't need them at all
and that I was better off without anyone standing by my side

But it only made me weaken further.

I want to stop procrastinating.
All I cared for was myself,
thinking that if it made me feel much better
it would make those around me feel better too

But I was deep wrong

I have to retrace my steps
to take a u-turn or something
and I am deeply grateful
if I would to be given another chance at it again
and I would give it my all

Even the best fall down sometimes
so do not be afraid to fall
cos' the fear of falling is much more vulnerable
than falling itself

I have fallen.

and I am not afraid that I have

now all I need now
is to share my hurt and pain with those around me
for then I'd be able to get up again
and walk freely like I used to

I think it takes much more courage to open yourself up,
and to share all your hurt that has been bothering you
with your loved ones
than to bottle it all within;
cos the hurt that is inflicted upon those whom you initially thought you "protected"
will ultimately outweigh the hurt that is inflicted when you are
willing to share it with others

Well I guess being strong,
is have a sense of admitting to your mistakes
and forget about everything that has to do with your ego
and what matters most
is that you're able to extend yourself further
widen your scope or range
and to do what is not expected of you,
and at the same time,
standing firm to your beliefs.

It doesn't mean that once you've fallen
you're left all alone by yourself to figure it out,
but it's more like you chose for it to turn out that way
but rather it means that once you've fallen
you're more likely to realise
that the ones whom you often seem to doubt of their intentions
instead turn out to be there for you
supporting you as and when you need;

do them a favour as you would do it for yourself;
don't turn them down yeah

I think I've finally realised my mistake;
and I don't think falling would be something that I am afraid of,
not anymore I guess.

It is our option to choose
whether we want things to work out that way
and even if things have turned out way beyond our expectations
we often choose to hang over and mope about it,
instead of considering the many hidden options that we have in store

I want to stop pretending;
You may think that I'm okay,
but it's merely a damn facade alright

I want to take off that facade
and every moment I have it with me
is just so torturing;

don't we all take things for granted anyway
and it's strange how we understand how much the things we have around us
everyday -friends, loved ones etc. really mean to us
when they are lost right

just like the seedling,
ever accepting the sun's love
love that is rich with sunlight
and it,
silently appreciating whatever the sun does
just to keep it alive

on the contrary,
if that seedling resists that act of love
and turns down whatever the sun does out of its spiritual kindness,
it's no different than a withered plant overshadowed by tall sturdy trees
and when it finally knows what state it is in
it longs for a chance to start all over
and even though it starts to appreciate the sun's love

it's all too late isn't it

I'm just like that withered plant in a corner}

a thousand miles
5:26 PM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

I've been feeling pretty random nowadays,
well maybe it's because of the release of exam papers
where everyone gets all tensed up and extreme at times
and we comfort each other when we fail to meet the standards

But whichever's the case
I think it's time we thought about each other
and to be sensitive at times
pitching in to give a hand
or to simply just be silent when times are inappropriate

It just makes me feel disappointed in those whom I trust
after all these times
that what matters most is the results
They get all hung over and everything when
they do not get their desired results
and they jump over the moon and get high when
they do so
And what's worse is that they fail to think about those around them
who have been next to them all along
yet they're always out of the picture ):

Perhaps we see the true side of people
when such situations occur huh.

Oh wells. ]:

Everyone has to go through failure at times
and you're not the only one you know;
and no matter how deep you've fallen
and no matter how much pain and hurt you received from falling,
wipe away those tears,
brush away the dirt that clung onto your knees
and bounce back to your feet

What matters,
is not seeing that tree all grown up
with its leaves stretching out to its fullest,
but to see that it brings much fulfillment and joy
to see it grow and mature over time
right since the start of day one

And I must say that the closest of people
though they may seem so distant away
actually instill in you a sense of being in others' shoes
instead of being so self-centred most of the time
without knowing it themselves
and somehow
they make you a better person on the whole
yet they do not realise it
which is good in a way I think haha

Sometimes I just feel helpless and
I just think myself as a complete moron at times.

In the past,
when you were down and all
I tried all my best to be there for you
but it was just out of my reach,
and I couldn't do anything to make you feel better

But now
when I know exactly what to do
when you are down and out of place
I fail to be there for you
even though I know that you really need someone by your side

I don't know why;
maybe I wasn't supposed to be there
'cos somehow
I think that I wouldn't make a difference anyway
after all that futile attempts

heck it, but this is one contradicting post):

maybe it wasn't meant to be}

a thousand miles
8:45 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

What's lost cannot be retrieved,
and what's happened cannot repeat itself.

I don't exactly know;
it may return,
but one thing's for sure:
it would never feel the same again.

It appears that time is not on my side,
which gives me all the more reason
to take on things which I have not tried before
and to cherish the ones I love while I can.

Is anyone with me?

a thousand miles
11:13 PM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

我想放弃一切；

There are a couple of times,
I wanted to give up so bad,
that I was willing to sacrifice all I had,
for the ones I love.

I don't know;
maybe it's like part of me or something,
a strong fire within me,
urging me to go on,
no matter what.

It makes me wonder sometimes,
all that I'm doing right now,
does it really make a difference,
or is it even worth it?

I didn't really consider all these at first,
and I act rashly,
as though I am following a reversed compass,
and I often find myself in a place I least expected to be in.
Maybe it's time for me to reconsider huh.

I always thought that maybe, just maybe,
if I could just turn back time,
I just wanted to be a nobody,
and to just stay out of other people's affairs,
and to give that heck-care attitude.

But I know that,
deep inside it'd hurt more than anything else in the world,
to be able to fold your arms just when someone is out calling for help.
Imagine that person feeling so helpless and alone,
with no one to turn to,
somehow holding to a little ray of hope,
only to be disappointed by reality.

Sometimes I wonder,
that there are some people out there who take you for granted,
and after they are done with you,
they move on,
and cast you aside,
and the rest is history.

I'm almost convinced though,
that maybe I should stop all these,
and maybe it's time I considered,
are you really worth it at all?

I'm tired of all these,
and maybe it's time I backtracked or something.

I'm tired,
but do you even realise that I'm all worn out,
and just when I really need someone,
it just all turns out otherwise.

But what can I expect anyway,
since I brought it all upon myself.

Sometimes I wonder,
why do I even bother? ):

It's because I care.

I really do.

a thousand miles
10:25 PM

Monday, October 09, 2006

I'm just so tired of it all;
I didn't know that some things could just steal your soul,
and just zap away all your energy ]:

Misunderstandings stand in between people,
and no matter how hard they try to get those out of the way,
they only end up saying hurtful words that aren't supposed to be spoken of.
They all try to voice out their opinions,
but sometimes it just crosses the line.

They do have a point there,
but sometimes they just have to be sensitive,
and understand that although people may not "listen" to you as you speak,
they actually take note of every word you are saying,
and every word really is something.

Certain things shouldn't be judged in a manichean kind of way.
It doesn't mean that things that are not white,
are supposed to be black,
or things that are not right,
are supposed to be wrong,
or even things that do not see an approval,
are disapproved.

We take on the either-yes-or-no view to many other things,
that we tend to miss out on the little details,
which actually do make a difference.
Somehow when we have to make a decision at some point or another,
we consult others for their opinions.

Some give approvals,
while some give disapprovals,
but out of them all,
who actually sees through the mirrors,
and provides them with assurance;
perhaps the inner confidence that they really need,
throughout the uneasiness and insecurity of it all,
assuring them that whatever happens,
happens for a reason,
and they are willing to support every decision you make.

I guess we all need to vision ourselves in other people's shoes,
and only then would we be able to understand
what is going through those minds,
and to reach out to them,
assuring them that they're not alone. (:

a thousand miles
10:01 PM

Saturday, October 07, 2006

The strongest of times,
may actually be our most vulnerable stages.

Ironic as it seems,
somehow I feel that it is something
in which I can relate to.

We may appear strong at times.
but that does not necessarily mean that we really are.
We're always out to show that we're okay,
to behave the way they expect us to be,
to hide away the shortcomings and bring out the rest.

And the tiring thing about this,
is not that we have to do this
for 1min,
1 hour,
1 day,
but 24/7.

But do we really have to do this,
despite of the 1001 shortcomings we have within?
It seems as though it's our natural instincts,
as to not get those you love involved,
nor do you want to bring them down together with you
ain't it.

Sometimes it feels as though
things should be kept from them
and they just shouldn't be exposed to what we are going through, aye.
It's just ain't fair. Not to them.

but no, it isn't the best thing to do :\

I don't wanna hide away anymore;
I'm not perfect,
nobody said I was
I wanna face up to reality,
to face up to the truth,
and although I may look strong on the outside,
I'm just so vulnerable within;

Somehow the closest of friends seem so distant,
and I put on a mask only to assure myself,
that everything's okay.
Well I'm tired of all these,
and I want to stop the pretence,
but it seems almost impossible,
when all the odds are against me.

And as I lay there standing,
I sense the uneasiness of it all,
yet the smile would still appear,
across my face.
But once the heads are turned,
that smile would be withdrawn,
and that mask would be taken down.

I'm falling;
would anyone come to catch me fall?

it's just so surreal}

a thousand miles
12:03 AM

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Imperfections}

Why do people keep holding on to what they see,
and ignore all the others altogether.

It's funny,
how people get deluded into thinking,
that there's only one thing,
and that one thing can make people truly happy.

They go with the flow,
and they hardly ever think of where they're going,
only to end up somewhere else.
Perfect, isn't it.

We choose not to take the road less-travelled,
with fears and phobias fuelling our minds,
and we tend to follow what's stated on our maps.

It's strange how people tend to see what's in front,
and fail to notice the ones just next to us.
We tend to reach for the skies,
and we fail to realise,
that people who have reached the top,
once started out from the bottom.

Somehow we've become stereotypes,
to follow what has been done,
and to aim for what everybody wants.
And that's where it all starts.

I guess we've all failed all use our sense of touch,
to touch other people's lives,
instead of expecting them to touch ours.

It's just like how the normal,
will never get to experience how it feels like,
to be tied on to physical limitations,
or fathom the pure joy of walking or running.

or how the popular,
will never get to experience how it feels like to be cast aside

or how those who stay cooped up indoors,
will never get to experiece how it feels like,
to go into the great outdoors

or those who expect things to come them,
will never get to experience the sense of adventure,
to seek out the unknown

or those who seek the high and sophisticated,
will fail to even notice the simplest of things,
right at our very fingertips

or even those who tend to mild upon the imperfections,
will never get to experience how it feels like,
to hold on to those little moments in life,
those moments which lift you straight in the air,
and leave you soaring through the skies.

I guess we've all failed to ask ourselves one thing,
is it our expectations,
which causes us to think,
that life is full of imperfections?

If that's the case,
I guess we shouldn't expect too much huh.
For it will only lead to disappointments

If I were given a pair of rollerblades,
or a bicycle,
or a trishaw,
or a car,
or even a hot-air balloon,
to travel around the world,

I guess I'd rather settle for my feet.

Expectations}

a thousand miles
7:45 PM

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